day 3

Today I totally sucked!   I was pissed off, cranky and a mess.   Yes I gave in to that stupid little white and brown demon on quite a few occassions.   Though there were a few times I picked up the knitting needles also.   It was so damn hot today too.  No excuse for falling off the wagon.  But, I will have to do a better job at it tomorrow.    This journey is not easy at all.   But I will be able to do it. I just got to give myself better credit and do something about those evil thoughts.  I have put my son in charge of my cigarette packets.  Because he is an ass to get anything out of, on both a physical and literal figure of speech.  

He told me NO on many occasions today. Love him for that.  He just got to get tougher with me lol, well and with his dad too lol. My hubby is easy to bend and persaude into doing something even though you dont really want him to go ahead and do it lol.    Though my hubby can be tough on other stuff which sometimes I can hate him for or love him even more for.   Strange I know!

Anyways.... I must sign off here. .....   Until tomorrow.   where I WILL WIN! :)

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day 2

I woke up this morning totally grumpy and tight chested.   Hate that feeling.....   I didn't succeed again today without having a smoke or 2.  I know I shouldn't kick myself but I am doing better as each day goes. Tomorrow is another day..   It will be a better day I know it.    I did however stop playing on Facebook because I know that FB , coffee and cigs just blend well together :S   Not a good friendship I know.   

How does it feel to give up smoking......   I thought about it a lot when I truly craved for it today.   It is like in some sense losing an all important companion.   YES I know its not a real living thing but like a baby and its comforter.  Or a teen and their "electronic" toy going without it you truly do miss it.   I know that this feeling will pass.......... I am getting better at letting go.   I just need to stop being so Pessimistic about it all.   Stop Procrastinating and get on with the job at hand.  
Tomorrow will be a better road to success for me :))

day 1

True quote in this picture I must say!  Sure its been a tough day but I have been extremely good!   I woke up a little grumpy.   Not because I knew today was the beginning to an end, but because my sleep was rubbish LOL. I had a total of 1 cig during my working hours today but a total of 3 all day.   Didn’t even get to have one with my morning coffee! Maybe that was why the coffee tasted different? LOL. When I went out at lunch today I sat on the usual seat next to the bin with the ashtray attached.  Not a good move.  Sure I lit up a cig and the burning of the ashtray beside me was killing me with the stench of the smoke.  I had that smoke and can’t say I “enjoyed” it because I didn’t.  So, I left that spot and went back upstairs to my desk. In the lift up I was feeling really “giddy” not a good feeling that’s for sure.   Yep I must say that should have been my lesson learnt.  But no I leave work and lit up again L  Yep ashamed. This is going to be tough but I am doing good.   Tomorrow I am going to try even harder to better then I did today!  I can do it, I know I can!

Dove inizia il viaggio!

Today I decided to take a new journey in my life….   A journey to a better me! I decided that I will give up on smoking!   I can hear a lot of people saying now Yeah yeah you said it before and yet you still continue to do it.   Not anymore.  I have had enough. So here is to a better me! LOL I just noticed with the picture down the bottom says You Can Do It!   This is funny because Aurora’s school’s motto is You Can Do It and as a WNSS kid I can too! J